why must the past, the present and the future be three separate things?

i wish they coincides.

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14th June 2009 -
                               My heart broke a million pieces. I wish I could see this coming. 
                               So that I won't put so much trust, care and concern into our friendship.  
                           
                               Despite all these, I still regard you as family. 
                               I hope one fine day, we will be like how we used to.  
                               Till then, I hope you are happy and may you achieve your dreams/goals in life. 
                               Take care, dear friend.

i love remedials.
remedials are the time where i can bond with my students.
and they made me laughed so hard just now. HAHA!

i love my kids. i love my kids. i love my kids. i love my kids. i love my kids. i love my kids.

:)))))

when life gets busy... must bestfriends be enemies?

finally, i find the time to post. only because i am on medical leave. heh. 3 days medical leave! wee....
but i taught 2 classes ytd before going to the doctor.. so by right, ytd was not counted... oh well... as long as i can rest i am happy. :)

work has been taking alot of my time and energy.
the first two weeks were the hardest part, cuz i was still trying to get use to it and still trying to set my foot on the ground.
but, now i can manage my time between lesson planning, creating worksheets and teaching my students.
i love my time in the class the most. the interaction with the students during class are worth the time spent creating worksheet and planning the best lesson for them.
the only boo hoo about my work, is the small working area! bleargh.
i wish i have my L-shaped table again. :(
now, i am making use of every available space there is. even under the table!

the ppl at work rock too. and they r one of the reasons that make work much more enduring and fun.
we will bitch at our favourite room, go for eating breaks as and when we feel hungry or stress out, and after school, esp during stressful days, we will go to jp for our yami yogurt. yum....

my students rock too.
i scolded them, i made them stand facing the flagpole, i punished them, i shouted at them, but in the end... i still love them. haha.
but, now they know me well. they know what will irks me, what will make me angry etc.
and it amuses me how they will try their best to work for my praises. :)

3 more weeks to go!
now i need to rest. the medication makes me drowsy.
till next time!
ciao.

as i construct my test papers, i remembered how many difficult test papers i had ever sat for.
and it made me wonder, did my teachers stratch their head as hard as me? do they have a hard time solving for the answers themselves?
haha.
cuz boy, i sure had.

i am sooo lazy i like to construct easy test papers.
cuz i don't have to think so hard to solve them. :P

anyway i'm sick. heavy head, aching back.
and section B of test paper to complete.

sick and assignments don't go well together.
*whins*

ok section A done. one more section to go!

out of the blue, in the middle of a damn boring lecture on test construction,
my friend asked me: aida, do you know where i could buy time?

i thought i heard wrongly, but i made him repeat the question.
and i exclaimed: if i know, i would have buy the whole shop!!!!

what an appropriate question to ask, in the middle of all these assignment madness we have gotten ourselves into.

as i walk home, i thought, how nice will it be, if time could actually be bought.
since at this era, we could even buy happiness.

oh well... life goes on. and i just wasted 5 minutes typng this down. shiiiiaaat.

gee.. i've turned 24!

i've managed to convert myself to one of those people who don't cares bout the number-shit
haha...

thinking bout the number itself just freaks me out. hence the best way is to stop giving a shit about the number.

haha...

anyway... i had fun ytd!
the girls brought me to keppel bay for a nice romantic dinner. :)
lovely scene, lovely ambience... but most importantly, lovely company!

after that i found myself cutting my birthday cake as soon as the clock struck midnight with the ntu people!
my first mass-birthday-cutting celebration... it was definitely over-whelming to have more then a dozen people singing happy birthday song to you. thank you peeps. :)
( pictures )

maybe i have mentioned this before.
but i shall mention it again.

i will always melt when i watch kurt cobain.
he is ike the legacy of hotness or something.
*melts*

i told my sister, that a guy will have the key to my heart if he's able to sing  "hotel california" or "the man who sold the world" hahaha...
but of course, he has to play the guitar too.

and my sister said.. "you are SOOOOO weird!"

*roll eyes*

i am looking forward to this long weekend holiday.
i shall embrace it and try to make it as fruitful as possible : by completing one assignment at a time.

went shopping ytd.
and oh my! the crowd!
i din know singapore has that much people! over population!

and i don't get the concert organisers.. AT ALL.
why can't they open up seats to people who are willing to pay for the free tickets that they are planning to give away!?
bleargh.

ok time to work and complete my lesson plan.
happy cny and happy holidays to all! :)

2009 has came since 21 days ago...
it's not even a month..... but it felt long though. heh.

i managed to welcome the new year with the girls at the coffee shop near my place, after a day in my bedroom, watching horror movies and doing girly stuff. haha! (go to my facebook for more info on this)

it was fun fun fun... up till the moment school semester started.
it was like a never ending load of assignments, one after another.
last i counted, i have 12 assignments to complete, in just 1 month.
madness is an under-statement in this case.
i can find no word to describe it. *sob*
(even my 4 years in ntu wasnt this bad.)

but, assignments or not, i still have to enjoy my life a little and have what people refer to as; social life.
since shopping is too energy consuming, i have been doing lots of dinner meet-ups instead, with my lovely friends....
and hang around with my crazy people.
they keep me sane at times like this. lol.

syikin's birthday celebration at costa sands chalet was one of the fun retreat.
i extremely enjoyed the food, and of course the slumber party we had after that.
the movie sri rented was the most intriguing horror movie i've seen.
unlike horror movies which scare the shit out of me, like juon etc, this movie made me want to know why why why...
it was so frustrating! haha.
i guess maybe the reason why i enjoyed that movie was that it was more about black magic rather than ghost appearing here and there and everywhere.
besides, i can tolerate gross movies like Saw but not movies like Juon or Shutter.
i rather see people saw their leg off rather than watching ghosts appearing out of a sudden.  i am weird like that. haha!

anyway, you guys should watch changeling.
it's awesome! two thumbs up!

okie dokie.. i better sleep.
long day ahead tmr. *yawn*

i finally get my laptop back!!!

i so miss u dearest lappie..... :P

morning!!!

while wating for mum to bring home breakfast, i decided to drop by my lj which is full of dusts and cobwebs... heh...

i have tuition later (parents are kiasu nowadays, dec also want to have tuition!!), and after that off to meet fath who is accompanying me to send this irritating laptop of mine to HP service center. :(

my laptop has mood swings. it took several 'on and off' moments before the screen will appear. if not i will be staring at a blank screen.
haiz...

hopefully they could solve this problem. if not i have to buy a new laptop man. sob sob.

anywayz.....

my holiday has been awesome so far.
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*gasp* geez... it's already 11:15am! haha...
i better go bathe and get ready for tuition...
gonna camwhore again today! haha...
ciao~

i have lots of time nowadays as school has partially ended... hee...
i only have lessons on thurs and fri. which leave me freezy breezy on mon, tues and wed. :)
let's sing to nelly fertado's i'm like a bird~ ~~

i have so much to blog about.
but when u have 2 weeks of events to blog about in one day, u tend to just rely on photos to do the talking.
basically, i am just lazzzyyyy! heee.... besides... there's facebook now.... haha!

anywayz..... my days are mostly spent with joyful people...
a few weeks back was sri's birthday celeb. where we spent our evening at sentosa.
i can never get enough of the luge ride...!!!
and farhan was the cameraman of the day.
( it was an anonymous vote, as his camera rockz! haha...)

( here are the pics! )

and last week... i managed to catch up with two 'old' friends. haha...
we have a rare friendship.
we met during one of NTU's project thingy (which by now i have no recognition about..at all! hee..)
we clicked and talked about almost everything.
but we don't hang out together in school, as all of us have our own click.

although we seldom meet, (we meet as often as once every 6 months...)
we can talk like as if we meet each other every single day... it's amazing...!
we met last thurs.. and had so much fun!!!....
we talked and catch up....and of course, camwhored... :)

it was amazing, just sitting there, by the river... in front of the spore flyer...
and talk about traveling experiences... USA... France.... yada yada...
(well they talk, and i just listen... the furthest i've been to is Thailand... sob)
i am so going to disneyland man... after i hear how fun it was over there... haiz...
oh when can that be?

( more pics... :) )

i can't wait for another fun weekend ahead. girly girl outing on sat and then Avenue Q with xy on sun. :)))
ok.. time for another burst of sex and the city...
i watched reruns from season 1 and i am hooked!
oh and not forgetting my old time favourite... Monk! haha...
tata... till laters!

i had such a continously eventful long weekend this deepavali.

had fun with the girls, shocking moments involving the car and emotional turmoil due to the car.

due to my misjudgement, i had managed to produce strands of black marks on my dad's car.
which has been 'repaired' asap the very next day. i am so thankful it did not went any worst like dented car, dent/broke other ppl car etc.
for now i just have to accept reality, that it has already happened.
my parents were surprisingly very understanding, and they were more worried to see me in a distressed state that they din even lecture me nor ground me. hee. i guess i must have looked horrible.

i was overwhelmed with so much emotions: guilt, frustration with myself, frightened, dissappointed.... and the list goes on.
i can't sleep the whole night, thinking about it as the incident kept replaying in my mind.
i can't even eat my dinner. my mind is totally on tha car, on the "if only i..." statements and so on ....
i was so mind-fucked that i look like a horrible looking old maid or something.

but all is well now. :)
the car looks like how it used to look like in less than 24 hours.
all thanks to the uncles at the workshop.

my uncles and dad kept reassuring me that what i had went through was nothing major as compared to their experiences. but, i am born with a weak heart. i am too fragile i guess.

i don't think i can get behind the wheel for quite awhile.
although it wasn't major, it managed to shook me.
nothing as close as that has ever happened to me.
this is the first mark/scratch i have made on my dad's car and i just have to react in this way.
i need more courage and confidence.
which my dad kept reassuring i will gained back soon.

at times like this, i am thankful that i have such parents, who do not rub salt into my wounds.
and instead are there to give me ecouragement.
i know deep inside it must have hurt my dad to see his car with those marks/scratches.
yet, he din as much as raised his voice at me. he was lauging at me as he saw me in a distressed state at the car park. squatting and staring at the scratches.
maybe if it's a big dent etc, he will find me wailing loudly at the carpark.
heh...

but despite all that has happened, i still managed to enjoy my outing on that day.
the movie at botanic garden was great, esp when it was spent with my best buddies.
:) thanks alot girls. i am sorry u girls have to go through that.  


on top of the car story,  i am now spending most of my time in the hospital visiting my grandpa.
he has been in and out of the hospital for countless times, but i have not seen him this weak before.
haiz. part of growing i guess.


you have always been a rock, whom i go to when i am destressed.
but even at this moment, where i needed so much to talk to you about it, i just can't bring myself to.
i am afraid i will make you even more angry. and even more annoyed at me.
as i have told you that i will not bother you anymore.

since last week, i feel like my days went by in fast forward mode.
it's like a dream.... and i have just woken up from it.

i managed to complete my maths lesson plan on friday night, just in time to go to malaysia for my aunt's open house.
though i was tired (i went maalysia straight after tution, which ends at 3pm!)... it was a lot of fun....!!!
it was my first time experiencing raya in malaysia... and i will so do it again!

the path way leading to her house was lighted with candles... and they have tables outside the house, and again, the tables are lighted with candles.
it was a fantastic ambience. so meriah (happening) and very nostalgic.
we played mercun, bunga api and we keep 'bomb-ing' each other...
it reminded me of my childhood days, where me and cousins will do stupid things to each other.
and on sat night, we played as if we were young again...
i really like that feeling
:)

after a wonderful night of raya-ing... and of cuz. eating.... oh have i mentioned my aunt prepared a splendid meal.. that i was still eating when it was already past midnight!!! tee hee....

so ya... anyway... after that wonderful night... we went home in the morning....
and reached Singapore at around 11 plus am....
after which i get ready to join the NTU peepz for jalan raya...
i managed to convince my parents to lend me the car...
and so.. me and fath found ourselves alone in the car... with a driver who doesn't know the way (that's ME).. and a navigator who doesn't know how to read the street directory (FATH).... hahahaha!

it was the most memorable part of the whole day....
i am just glad that she was with me in the car... and not anyone else....
cuz only she can take my tantrums as i demand her for directions... haha...
if it was anyone else... they will sure gonna scold me for getting us lost... hahaha...

at the end of the day, i was beyond tired.
i legs were aching (cuz my dad's car is manual! pfft) and my head was heavy ...
as soon as i bathe, i slept immediately...
as much as i believe that i am energizer bunny... i forget that even batteries need to be charged... (hur hur)

i was still very much shagged on mon... as it was my maths lesson plan submission day and i had to prepare for tuesday presentation...
which was thankfully over!
now i am left with an essay to write, 1 proposal, 3 presentation, 2 lesson plans and 1 test. (OH MY GOD!)
to think that i have already cleared about half of my assignments... haha...


oh well... a day at a time....
now i shall enjoy myself.
tuesday = happiness! csi!!
and i so deserve a 1 day break....
heh...

take care everyone!

picture time for now.
as my time is spent typing away on word document and power point slides.
my fingers are aching from all the typing and what nots that i am using my thumb to type this entry out.
am not kidding.

ok picture vomit:

finally i managed to find the time to upload pictures from Raya on wednesday.
as usual, it was joyous, only this time instead of receiving green packets, i have to give them.
but the feeling of giving feels good. maybe for the first few times. hehe.

after wednesday though, i was back to my busy schedule, whereby i have 3 consecutive meeting on thurs, followed by tuition.
the thought of jumping into bed and knock off is very tempting but i have 2 urgent emails to send, which thus find me typing away till about 11pm whereby i fell asleep straight after sending the 2nd email. i woke up at 1am to find my hand on my lappie which shows the last word document i have completed.

is this the real life of an educator? they say now is my honeymoon period. supposed to be. but, i don't see myself breezing through it at all.
bleargh.

ok back to the joyous occasion where the amount of food is infinite. (ok that's abit dramatic. hee)
here are the pics. took alot with the lil ones, as haikal just can't see camera. he just keep taking.
talking about early showcase of talent: camwhoring.

btw, all the above funny faces were innitiated by Haikal (the one in blue). he will go "kakak dada! stick your tongue like this *sticks tongue*"... .."kakak dada! we do elephant".... "kakak dada... we do lion *growls*"
there's more and they are equivalently adorable. *smilez*

anyway, Selamat Hari Raya everyone!